ESAT preperation

 This adventure is a reflection of how I've been in the last few days.    

Life has been shit recently, uni admission exams have been ruining me. I've noticed that I'm getting 3 hours of sleep on a good night, even when I go to bed at 10pm. The exams are so fucking hard. My highest was a 7.8 on the advanced physics and maths section; the maximum is a 9, and I was 2 marks off. Overall, my preparation has left me with shattered confidence, and I don't really want to go to school. On the other hand, I enjoy the papers as they teach me to use my knowledge in such unorthodox ways when I get back to my normal A - level content, it will be easier.

In general, I'm not ready for my exam. If I'm lucky, I will walk away with a pass, but I think I will get hit with a reality check that I'm not as smart as I think I am.

To be honest with you, I feel like my break hasn't been a break, instead, it's been agonising.